Thursday, June 30, 2011

The Lesson I Have Learned...Again

It’s funny.  You do all this soul searching, heart wrenching work on yourself until you get to a point that you think ‘Phew!  I’m done.  I am finally comfortable in my own skin.  I can go through my day without berating myself at every turn.  I’m OK with me.’

Tuesday, June 28, 2011

The Voice of a Child

I was not respected as a child.  That’s not unusual.  Most of us were not.  Like many kids, I felt my needs and desires, in most arenas of my life, were an insignificant blip on a map of the adults in my world.  Sometimes seen, rarely worth acknowledging.  

Friday, June 24, 2011

The Power of One Word

Words are so powerful.  I guess that’s nothing new.  What’s interesting is that words that you have heard all your life suddenly take on new meaning, or become of great importance, at a pivotal point in your life.

Monday, June 20, 2011

In Search of My Voice

One of my most challenging hurdles to overcome has been clearly and calmly stating my intentions and desires.  It’s the most difficult with my husband, a kind, gentle, loving man who adores me.  But, a man just the same.  Going ‘against’ him ( the way my brain chooses to describe it, not my heart) continues to scare me even after 32 years of marriage.  

Sunday, June 19, 2011

One Woman’s Affirmation

Among all the things that I have disliked about myself over the years, one of the most challenging to deal with, has to be that I have never liked that I was a woman. 

Friday, June 17, 2011

Break Out The Hula-Hoop, It’s Time To Be Happy!

Did you ever notice that as very young children, we live in the moment, eagerly, almost ravenously, expanding our knowledge of the world and all it has to offer.  We see something pretty or shiny, our brain says ‘touch it’.  We feel something nubby, or slick and our brain says ‘taste it’.  We are confidently impulsive, boldly trying any new thing that comes into our path. 

Thursday, June 16, 2011

A Wise Woman Warrior

It’s recently become very obvious that I have been catapulted into a new phase of life. I believe, in years past, it would have been called the Crone phase.  But, I just can’t embrace that term.  However, today I heard the same phase of life referred to as the Wise Woman Years.  Under that label I blossomed.

Tuesday, June 14, 2011

Thank You For Your Opinion, Now Please Be Quiet!

What is it that tells us we can’t? Is it a collection of all the rejections we’ve received in the past?  Or, is it a constant feed loop of all of our own disappointments?  I figure, for most of us, it’s probably a little bit of both. 

Sunday, June 12, 2011

Oops! Forgot Someone

Wired from the planning of a women’s event yesterday, and trying to refocus on a second event and subsequent party I’m hosting tonight, I find I am in battle mode, an uncomfortable mix of prepared and last minute run-throughs of strategy, and plans. 

Friday, June 10, 2011

Women By My Side

It seems that all of my life I have been searching for a place to fit in.  To belong.  I’m not saying I haven’t had friends.  I have, and some were really great ones.  But, the need was always bigger than onesy-s and twosy-s.   I realize now, what I wanted was a community. 

Saturday, June 4, 2011

Today I Honor The Little Girl

While going through some old photographs of me as a girl, like most in this situation I was transported back in time, a short biography of myself being played out as I turned the pages.  Me, grade 5, wearing that funky brown dress with the daisies and cloth covered button. (Itchy and stiff)  Me, age 13, with groovy green and orange plaid, bell-bottom, low slung, hip hugger pant.  (They were so cool)  Me, posing with my date, for the prom.  Weird dress. (I made that dress, and attempted to make one like it for my friend.  Mom had to rescue me from that disaster.)